bungee cords

Walking Mileage: 4.35

November Miles Walked: 65.75

Temperature upon departure: 42*

Humidity: 74%

Sleeping has been difficult for me this week, which is very abnormal. I have always been known for my ability to sleep anywhere, anytime. When I was kid in Alaska I couldn't ride on a snow machine without falling asleep. Yes, I fell off the back numerous times. So many times that Grandpa actually used to wrap bungee cords around us to keep me from falling off. Then I would just bounce to the side and when we hit a bump I'd bounce back up leaning on his back. He used to crack up telling the story to friends and family when we got home.

A week with disruptive sleep is driving me crazy and not very funny to me. I really miss dreaming, which I've replaced with worring. I have so much on my mind, this time of year always gets me in a weird 'gotta do' & 'gotta go' worry, worry mode. Finding the perfect Christmas gifts, baking cookies, finishing end of year work at work, planning for the new year is usually enough to stress me out. This year I've added a second job and preparing for a two week trip to Alaska. Maybe it will help to get the worries listed and off my mind:

Worry #1- The dogs. I am paying a dog sitter a half a month's rent to come over and see the dogs for 2-thirty minute visits per day while we are gone. I worry that they will be miserable, lonely and destroy my furniture and isn't that a bit expensive? *brighter side: at least they will be home and not at a kennel I guess.

Worry #2- 2nd job. I hate that I can't make enough money with just one job. I feel like a loser that I used to have such a great job and now the best job I've been able to get sucks. I also hate that I have to give up another 15 hours a week to dead end work. *brighter side: it's in a bakery, so maybe I'll learn some more about food, and maybe cake decorating. It also sells wine and cheese, more entertaining knowledge potential. It should be pretty laid back, unlike restaurant work.

Worry #3- Education. Wanting to go back to school and finish my bachelors is driving me crazy. I feel like the semesters are just slipping by me. It's a trade off of time vs. money to be made (see worry #2) I am obsessing about it. But dread math. *bright side: not going another semester puts off math class another semester.

Those are among the top worriers that are keeping my mind racing throughout the night. In addition to what is that second verse to "Silent Night", how can I get in a hundred miles next month with my new schedule, what is my new schedule, and how do I get better night pictures? I so want to move too, at this point I don't care where, just somewhere. Petey says-maybe over there.